Days like these...

drinking coffee and reading Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn

I´s been 5 months and I still think about you every day. 

I wish you felt the same. 

But you never did and never will. 

And I´m the only one to blame. 

A quote from Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn

"It´s a very difficult era in which to be a person, just a real, actual person, instead of a collection of personality traits selected from an endless Automat of characters. 
And if all of us are play-acting, there can be no such thing as a soul mate, because we 
don´t have genuine souls. 
It had gotten to the point where it seemed like nothing matters, because I´m not a real person and neither is anyone else.
I would have done anything to feel real again."

- Gillian Flynn: Gone Girl 

Sundown...

A lonely night´s thoughts. 

Sometimes - on lonely nights like this

with too many thoughts and too little sleep 

I feel as if my friends aren´t even involved in my life anymore.

And it is making me start to wonder 

if this is the way we´re truly supposed to be.

If this is what being independent and growing up actually means. 

And then I wonder 

if this way of thinking

is what actually makes me so lonely at night. 

Bill Viola, note 1 January 1987

spotted at the Tate Modern Museum in London: 

Cologne

Here are some pictures I took, when me and my sister made a trip to Cologne a few months ago! 

Cologne is one of my favorite places / cities and I am really hoping to be able to go to university here! Every time I make a trip there I´m having an amazing time and I´m hoping to be able to stay permanently pretty soon! 

More Than This: Book review

More Than This - Patrick Ness 

"A boy drowns, desperate and alone in his final moments. He dies. 

Then he wakes, naked and bruised and thirsty, but alive.

How can this be? And what is this strange deserted place? 

        As he struggles to understand what is happening, the boy dares to hope. 

Might this not be the end? Might there be more to this life, or perhaps this afterlife?"

This book really got to me! I just could´t stop reading because I had to find out what´s going to happen next and what more you can find out about the main character and his past. His journey and the answer to the question if there actually is more to come after death is what makes this book so amazingly interesting. I highly recommend it! 

London, July 2014